Was Wednesday really my latest entry? Has it been that long? Well, I'm pretty busy, working on some other writing things, and I've been seeing Phil, the old gringo, quite a bit. I have to admit: the virtual world is slowly but surely fading, as the past has a habit of doing. I haven't completely lost interest. I can't say for absolutely sure that I'll never go back. Now and then I get lonely for it and some of the people I knew. I learned a lot. I owe it a lot. But it's nice, you know, to really taste and feel things. I'll never stop being a devout believer in fantasy, but real life does have its charm.
When I made my list of characters and named them, did you notice that I knew mostly men? And everyone on the list was a lover of one sort or another? What's wrong with me? Didn't I have any friends? Not many, I admit. All of my men friends, and I had a few, wanted to be lovers, but for one reason or another I'd said no, and they stayed around anyway. In a few cases, I was really glad they did, and for a while in RLC, it was almost like I had a little soiree going. I'd stand around in the Bordello, waiting for a client, and match wits with guys who liked me but didn't want to pay, and a few other working girls.
I did have one woman friend on RLC. She changes names and identities so much it's hard to think of one she hasn't actually used, but I think I'll call her Ellen. She probably won't like it. Not very fashionable, is it? It's a respectable smart girl's name, though, and she's exactly that. I know much of her real life story, which I'm not going to tell you. It's interesting, but none of your business. See what a good friend I can be? Ellen and I first connected through an interest in serious literature, and we had some good conversations and good times, but we never really bonded the way I'd hoped we would. The problem, I think, was in how we viewed the virtual world, what we wanted from it. It was the same problem I had with so many of the guys I met. Ellen enjoyed her encounters in RLC, but she mostly wanted to use the virtual world as a way of meeting people in the real world. I didn't, and it proved to be a difference we never overcame. It's worth exploring why, I think, so stay tuned.
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